I haven’t really had much of a chance to write in 2017, so here’s one of my 3 or 4 blog posts a year. I’ve been in one of those depressing ruts again, but finally I’m pulling myself out of it and getting back to work on my projects again, making them bigger and better as always. That’s a joke, I always find something in my projects that nags at me and about a year later I just rewrite the whole thing only to come up with new issues that nag at me for yet another year, and the cycle just continues.
As I have talked about in my most recent blog post, I suffer from Bipolar disorder. For roughly a week and a half or so I was in a manic episode. Luckily I was able to keep my focus on just a set number of projects instead of starting new projects that I never finish.
Unfortunately due to my manic episode I tend to rush through code without leaving a lot of comments for myself. I also tend to break stuff, as usual, and forget where I left off to even fix it.
In the past few days I’ve finally hit that period where I start to feel melancholic. This obviously isn’t good. I stop focusing on code, and start slipping into a depression which makes it difficult to stay motivated.
I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder almost 2 years ago, but I have been suffering from it my whole life. With bipolar disorder comes constant ups and downs. Some days I just bounce right out of bed and start to work on projects. Other days I don’t feel like doing much of anything at all. In retrospect I see how it has affected work performance in the past.